[Public Diary] - My Eye Candy (look but don't touch...)

Hearing his voice again after such a long time was like rain falling on the most parched and dead soil. I felt alive in a way that I haven't felt in monthes.

"I miss you...like, alot."
I can die happy hearing those words pass his lips.

We talked of family, friends, life, food, our careers...We talked about stupid things, things that really had no point but to me, it was ecstacy just to sit there and talk. (and i'm sure it felt the same for him.)

I wonder if he noticed my voice was shaking...
Feelings of joyous nausea take over me when I heard him say "hello?"
My heart soared, my stomach backflipped, and a voice in my head said "not again.."

I am overwhelmed with feelings of such confidence and peace since we''ve spoken. I smiled for the first time in what seems like forever...

Forever... We talked about forever...
He's always had such a way with words and he didn't disapoint this time either.
With curious sounds flowing from his mouth... silken strands of A-E-I-O-U's.
It is a joy just to hear him speak, and it's heaven to hear him say such pretty things to and about me.

He told me it's like I'm back from the dead.
I've lived a half-life ever since the drugs...I've been an empty shell, possessed by a malicious spirit. A zombie, stumbling through life... with thoughts like decaying flesh, foul and falling away, uselessy.
It's true, he makes me feel so alive again...



I'm so in love, it scares me.
I'm afraid the past will repeat itself, but an old saying gves me hope:
“If you really love something set it free. If it comes back it’s yours, if not it wasn’t meant to be."

You never cease to amaze me.
In everything you do, everything you say, you blow me away and I love it.
Every conversation is like a new one, every time I see your face, i find something new to adore about it.

"How can I breathe when you take the breath from me...?"

No one makes me feel the way I fell when I'm with you...No memories compare to the ones I've made with you...

"I've never missed anyone as much as I miss you right now..."