Just something I was thinking about earlier. I have a really hard time trusting the female population. I never know if I am being lied to. The truth can pretty easily turn into a lie. Even accidentally.
I'm scared of relationships because of the fear of them turning sour, if you can dig that. It tends to make relationships seem pointless. Just something to do in-between sex sessions.
Realistically, most relationships don't work out. Probably whomever you are with now, you aren't going to be with them forever, regardless of what you think. You can say 'I'll love you forever' and all that bullshit, but what does it really mean?
Nothing. It's just something that people say. It is completely meaningless. To think that you are ever in a position to say, 'Hey dude, I'll love you forever and we'll get married and die laying in the same bed together' is fucking ridiculous. People change their minds. People lie. People fuck up. People are stupid. People cheat. People fall out of love.
Relationships, to me, seem like a drug. You find you a girl that you dig, you fuck her for a while, then she (or you) will eventually (most likely) break up and be sad and heartbroken and miserable. (This applies to being in a relationship with someone you care about, not this fake fuck buddy shit that most people have going on.) So basically what I am trying to say is that it's good for a while and then it probably will get bad.
And, to make matters worse, the longer its good, the worse the bad part will be. Can you see how that is like a drug?
Love is fake. Think about it. Love is a feeling, that's all. Feelings are created by your body for various reasons. All 'love' is is your body saying 'Oh ho ho, here we have something fuckable. I'd better produce happy feelings so I can reproduce!' There is no magic kind of love in the world.
Being 'in love' is exactly the same as an addiction. All that it means to be in love with someone is you have found someone to fuck that isn't annoying. Think about that. After you break up, it's going to hurt, just like if you stopped doing a drug. Your body goes through love withdrawal symptoms for a while because for however long it has been producing the 'happy love' chemical and then it just stops all of a sudden.
People that have experienced 'love at first sight' can be broken down into one category: Simple minded. To believe that it is possible to just look at someone and love them is absolutely insane. You can't just love someone automatically, unless you are at about the same maturity level as a seventh grader. 'Love at first sight' is synonymous with 'Wanting to fuck at first sight.'
"But I knew from the first time I saw her that I would spend the rest of my life with her."
No, actually the first time you saw her, your brain screamed 'I want to fuck that!' and so you went up and talked to her. If a marriage and a happily ever after ending comes from it, then ALL that fucking means is that her brain screamed "I want to fuck that!" when she saw you.
Getting to know people that you are interested in a relationship with is just a way of your brain finding you something to fuck that isn't going to annoy you.
Love is your body producing a feeling that you will like so that you will keep this person around, and fuck them.
Love is propaganda. Fuck relationships, fuck love, fuck people, and most of all dear reader: Fuck you.
Someone prove me wrong.